These are my thoughts about fillers and all things cosmetic surgery… Let me just say I am not judging anyone who has taken these measures. I understand what it’s like to feel unhappy about yourself. I am fully aware that making changes can help your confidence…
Nobody is more surprised than myself that I haven’t had any ‘work’ done. No this is definitely not a result of me loving myself. I have had self loathing ingrained in me from the age of four. But I’m not ready to share the truth about my childhood yet. Maybe one day, but not now.
I grew up idolizing the blonde bombshells. Marilyn, Jayne and even Pamela Anderson. My first car was a soft top and kind of topless so I called it Pammy in honor of my idol. There was even the time I almost moved to Texas to become a playmate, and yet even though I idolized women with fake tits to this day I’m just me.
Being on camera for my profession the scrutiny is unbearable. As soon as you hit 30, being on camera becomes confusing and can definitely provoke a lot of overthinking ones appearance. Suddenly you are at auditions with actresses whose faces aren’t moving when they are supposedly emoting. And even though my face crumples and still remains expressive, the role goes to those with a static sense of being.
Since lockdown, I find myself on my phone scrolling through pictures of girls in their early-twenties who have morphed into Kylie Jenner clones. It’s almost as if Kylie Jenner is preparing for world domination with an army of cyborgs- who aren’t really cyborgs but just girls who were actually beautiful before the lip fillers, before paralysis of the forehead and before they inflated their chests. Well all I can say is that America barely survived the last four years under rule of one narcissistic ruler…
Truth is, I’m not entirely against it nor do I swear I will never be worked on. But my problem is this…
First, I wish people of influence would just admit it. Stop denying your procedures and just own it.
Next, share stories of the pain and recovery or even the expense of it all.
Lastly, speak the truth as to why you changed yourself. Admit it comes from a place of insecurity or perhaps pressure. Or at least admit that’s where it all began…
We need young women to not be deluded into thinking they need to change their appearance to be happy.
You know the saying, money doesn’t buy happiness? Well cosmetic procedures cost money… get what I’m saying?
As said, I’m not against it. I’m sure I’ll do something at some point. But if your are under 30, please please try to wait… Wait and see how you feel when you reach the big 3-0. Maybe you will have changed your mind.
I’m a firm believer in do what makes you happy. So if having work done is what it takes then do it. But remember…
Happiness can only come from the inside.
If you need a confidence boost and a reminder of how perfect you already are, please check out my post Welcome to The Unicorn Diet
As always,
Live with Live,
The Bimbo in Limbo xxxx